Struggle.

Did not know which picture to put so here is Roko!

I have to say losing weight is so damn HARD. Some people make it look so easy. I have been stuck at the same weight for a while now with no loss. I know I have some things I need to change like eating late at night out of boredom, eating quick food, and not counting my calories and weighing my food like I used to do.

So I have made a really big decision and it is not a easy one because I have done it before. I plan on eliminating all meat except fish. Plus no rice. So I am going to be a pescetarian. I always say I am going to be one then not end up doing it. It should be an easy transition since my son is already one as well. 

Previously for a few years I lived a vegan life style and lost a lot of weight and my body and health was amazing. So I know this is the right way for me to go. So I will be eating fish, dairy, and such but not eating beef, chicken, pork, lamb, and so on. Since I know the diet and everything my meals should be quite easy.

One thing will be my mountain. Eating while traveling that is going to be a struggle. It is so hard to be able to find healthy food on the road. I will take you a long with me of course when I travel and so on.

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I know I have not blogged in a few days. My sons second birthday is this Friday and his party is on Saturday so I have been preparing, cleaning, and finishing all homework for this week so that way my weekend is clear. Since my son does not eat meat we will be having a lot of seafood and that helps me too on my transition of being a pescetarian. Since I have been so busy of course I have not been to the gym and I have been snacking on pretzels and so on the past few days. So once again I know I am failing at losing weight right now. I will be focusing on my sons party then back to business! I have to lose this weight I am determined but it is just such a struggle.

I bought my son a LeapPad for his birthday. He LOVES my iPhone and iPad so I know this will be something he loves to play with too plus it is more educational. I will have pictures up of the party so don't worry! I will make sure to get a ton of pictures!

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*WOMAN PROBLEMS NOT FOR GUYS*

So I have the implanon birth control since my periods are super heavy and painful. Suddenly I got my period and then a week later I get it again. I think it is time to take this thing out. It is not helping me in anyway since my periods are back I am back to being miserable. The only reason I got birth control is because I wanted my periods to GO AWAY! bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh. I will be making an appointment to get it taken out next week then I will have a normal period again which is going to suck but its better then getting a damn period every week.

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I have been having these thoughts about writing a book (like I even have the damn time). I get anxious to write and get a story going all the time. I guess that means I should start something even if it is small right? It wouldn't hurt to write a book when I get the time to do it. I wrote a few books when I was younger and that was so much fun. So I think thats the plan now to write a book, take care of my kids, go to school, make charms, be a single mother, cook, clean, blog, and so on. This should be interesting!

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I rearranged my furniture in my house yet AGAIN. I get so bored that I change my furniture constantly which annoys the crap out of my mom and my kids but I like change and this is an easy change to do its not something drastic and it is something I can control. Oh and I did a huge deep clean of my kitchen yesterday! I was so tired and I started decorating for my sons party! Today I have to finish the rest of the house but my son is still asleep and I don't want to wake him up or he will be cranky all day long then I will not be able to get anything done!

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Am I making things harder by trying to write a book?

Anyone out there reading this?

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Deanna