Exhausted.

I am beyond exhausted today. From Bobo teething and being cranky, hardly sleeping, and I just feel like there are not enough hours in a day anymore. 

Need to stop watching TV at night.

As I type this I am falling asleep. I was watching something last night on the Discovery Channel about Mermaids and finding the body of one. I could not stop watching it. Don't you hate it when you are so tired and you want to sleep but then something good comes on TV and ruins everything? I mean this is why I don't have a TV in my room but I do have the iPad and it has TV on it so I can watch it. Yet it never fails right when I am about to sleep BOOM! a show that is really interesting catches me. I know put the iPad away or something. I can't its like another gadget I am addicted to a lot of people have the same problem! I am not alone in this right? Tell me I am right so I don't feel like I am a loner. I swear electronics take over everything now a days. Well thats life I guess everything is dependent on electronics.

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My little monster a couple days old.

My sons birthday is coming up quickly. 10 days. I can't believe he is going to be two years old already. I can remember when he was born he was so small now he is huge and talking! Now I have a child in his terrible two stage where he screams and goes crazy for every little thing. Now I am a very patient person. I can handle a lot but screaming all day hurts my ears and I get frustrated when he is frustrated because I don't know what he wants and he can't tell me what he wants yet. 

His first birthday.

Oh did I say I was still nursing? Yes I am still breastfeeding and plan to keep on doing so. If you have something to say about that go for it I have heard it all and this is my choice. He is my last child so I am going to keep doing this. Thats probably another reason he is clingy to me. I don't mind clingy but I would love to be able to shower on my own in piece without a hand under the door or knocking with "MOMMYYYYYY BOOB" at every second of my shower. I have to say though Bobo is an awesome eater. He amazes me because my daughter was a horrible eater. She was super picky. Well I mean he won't eat meat but hey he eats his vegetables! 

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Focus on the steaks in the background. Stare and dream of the steak. I sure do.

By the way this was in Vegas thats my Aunt Alona with me.

I have lost 0.5lbs from yesterday. I have to say I am surprised I had a bit of craziness at night with Reese's Peanut Butter Cups. I need to get this damn junk the hell away from me. If I know its in the house I will eat it. So my pact now is to not buy any sweets or junk AT ALL from now on. Well except for my sons birthday party. I just won't eat the crap. Anyways I haven't exercised because its so damn hot outside and my "monthly friend" has joined me after 3 years so I feel like a complete B*TCH. For any male readers I have I am sorry but I am a woman and I deal with these things. Shall I get it out of your system now? Menstruation, vagina, breasts, and I don't know what else. There now thats done right? Back to business. Since my "monthly friend" all I want is sweets or salty food that I should not be eating. Plus the feeling is just a miserable one that I don't miss at all. Cramps are not my friend. Seriously I feel like I have food poisoning or I am in a punching battle with my woman parts. By the way my woman parts are winning this battle and my Motrin is losing by the minute. 

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This isn't a secret. Then again some of you might not know me. I LOVE DISNEY.

Spending Christmas at Disneyland this year with my mom and the kids. I love Disney so much. Why? It makes me feel like a kid and I have always gone to Disney ever since I was little its like a comfort zone for me. The picture above was at Disney California before World of Color started. I try to go to Disneyland at least once a year. I can't wait for Christmas this year.

With my cousins on California Screamin' I swear we rode that like 5 times.

We kept posing the whole ride in able to get a good picture. 

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This girl is on summer break now.

I feel like I don't have enough things for her to do in a day. She gets so BORED. 

I guess that means I need to give her homework to keep her busy! 

She has been so wonderful with her brother though!

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Well thats the end of this post for now. I am surprised I wrote so much!

Is anyone reading this?

Deanna